Where I'm At

I don't know how many times I've started this post. Every time I do something else goes wrong. I think I'm finally past the point of no return. I don't know what else could go bad, so I'm trying again. If you want to know why I haven't been posting, keep reading. If you you don't want to read a bunch of complaining, stop now.

Let's start with car trouble. Both of mine are broke down. They have been for months. Can't afford to fix the truck and can't figure out what's wrong with the car. Right now I'm using a friends car that the repo man is looking for.

Next. The I. FUCKING R.S. They sent me a letter wanting $700.00 plus for 2007. I sent it to them then I sent the paper work explaining why I didn't owe them. They eventually agreed with me. Now they say they want another $300.00 plus instead of the $700.00 I already sent them. They haven't given back the $700.00 but they will as soon as I send them the $300.00 I've faxed them the paperwork numerous times proving I owe nothing but no one has ever received it. They wont give me a case worker name or number, they say whoever gets it off the fax machine will be the one working on it. In other words the entire I.R.S. is working on my case. I'm sure Hussein is behind this.

Third. I'm a month and a half behind on rent. The landlord ran of things for me to do to pay the rent. However I have found a regular paying job, or I should say a job found me. A friend of mine is a manager for a HUGE convenience store chain. She offered me a job and I couldn't find a way out so I said O.K.

That's the fourth thing. I am now a polyester adorned name tag wearing minimum wage counter monkey. I worked 2 weeks full time and since the store is not making enough money they cut everybody's hours. Now I'm part time. Go figure.

Where are we? Number 5. The medical issues. I finally got into see a doctor. My blood is still fucked up. She's pretty sure it's some kind of low grade leukemia. The kind you can sort of live with cause it kills you slow. Her words. I like her. She needed to see my old blood work. After a month of waiting she finally called me yesterday. She said in the past that I needed a bone marrow biopsy. According to the files from the old doctor I've already had the biopsy. I however know for a fact that I've never had that procedure. I drive myself to and from all my appointments. They sedate you for a marrow biopsy, plus I have no scar, on top of that if I would have had one I would still be complaining about it. It's my nature. She said she didn't know what to make of that. I said I did. It's called fraud. My blood sugar is getting better, but I'm always in pain. Which makes me irritable and not much fun to be around. Enough of that. Just know, pain sucks.

Part F. As in FUCK ME. My biggest issue. My oldest boy. He's not playing football this year which I'm not happy about but he did join R.O.T.C. which kind of made up for the football thing. This summer he got a no trespass warning from Hobby Lobby because a friend of his was on the intercom system and said some stupid shit. They got caught and the police brought him home. It all originally started with this stunt which was forgivable. The second time wasn't. Then he decided to set the school on fire. He claims it was and accident. I almost believe the accident part. But I had to do what I do to keep him from getting charged with felony arson. Instead he got charged with a class B misdemeanor. He was arrested, finger printed and released to my custody. He is attending an alternative school for 30 school days. He has to pay for the damage to the library. Then at some point he has to go to court where he could face up to 180 days in jail and a huge fine. When I say he has to pay that really means me. All he's really facing is 180 days in juvenile hall. I can't let him go to jail. I always wanted him to do better than me. I'll do what I gotta do to keep him out even though it's just gonna make him think he can always get away with shit. All I can do is hope he learns something this time.

This is just a partial list of the shit going wrong in my life. There's tons of minor crap that I won't even bother to list. It all seems trivial until you lump it together. Hopefully I've made somebody feel better about their own life.

Just in case y'all didn't know Jack is going to Iraq. I don't know when he ships out. All I know is it really sucks.

Zelda. I got something for you.